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Jaden’s Curiosity Chronicles #135 - 7.20.25
“Tomorrow is a lie they sold you”
it’s 2:30 am & I’m here putting ink to the fucking page baby.
springtime in paris candle to fuel my vision & a freshly brewed cup of colombian to fuel my addiction.
ahhhh *sips cof-
HOLY FUCK THAT’S HOT.
a little watery too no bs.
*sips again*
yo hold the fuck up
*turns on lamp*
*attempts to discern between the black liquid & the black mug*
*fails desperately*
*sees bubbles inside cup & retastes*
hmmmmmmmmmm
I’m not convinced.
*52 seconds later*
just went downstairs to check the kuerig (keurig? idk how it’s spelled lol) machine & I DEFINITELY brewed a 12 oz cup of coffee using a colombian k-cup.
sooo why my coffee tastes like 98% water & 2% coffee idk..
my ranting aside..
all my life, all I’ve ever wanted was to be fucking great.
ok I’m pretty sure this is DEF coffee, I’m starting to get that caffeine brain fog from when you’re trying to replace sleep with bursts of raw creative output 😎
ahhh, the life of being a creative (:
all my life, all I’ve ever wanted to be was FUCKING GREAT.
legendary. iconic. other worldly.
I’ve seen the potential inside me & the visions that allow me foresight into future versions of myself with that actualized potential.
and I gotta be real.
bro is HIM.
Himmy Turner. Himmy Neutron. Himothy Chalamet if you will.
I’ve always known that I’ve been destined for greatness, called to do world changing things by the Big G Herself, but for the last 21 years I haven’t been able to truly claim that greatness.
I’ve hind stints & szns, I’ve hit goals & accomplished tasks that I didn’t know I was even capable of, but I haven’t been FULLY in it.
I’ve always been one foot in, one foot out.
never fully committed. never fully surrendered.
I haven’t been able to show up how I truly desire because I’ve continuously allowed the fears of ego to control me, rather than leaning on the faith of the soul to guide me in my times of hardship.
I’ve been trapped in this notion of “one day when things will be different”, on that hoping for a completion of anything bs, for a looonnnngggg timmmeeeeee.
if you relate to me, it’s probably pissing you off.
you know you have more to give but you’re just not giving it.
you could be creating, but you’re not.
you could be meditating, but you’re not.
you could be reading, but you’re not.
you could be lifting, but you’re not.
you’re not showing up to do the work.
you’re always avoiding, rarely attacking.
well let me slap you with a harsh dose of reality 2 fizzy.
no matter how much you ignore the work, it doesn’t change the fact that the work needs to get done if you want to become someone that you don’t hate anymore.
no one can do the work for you.
grab that fucking knife & start carving your name into the Tree of Greatness.
no one’s gonna carve it for you.
everyone’s too busy carving their own name or bitching, moaning, & crying about how hard it is to carve.
nobody cares about how hard it was to carve your name.
at the end of the day it only matters if you did the work or not.
will you be remembered? or will you wash away your life like all the bots that are too deep in the program?
choice is yours.
The alchemist’s fire
you need the work more than the work needs you, because the work works on you more than you work on it.
read that again.
now say it to yourself
“I need the work more than the work needs me, because the work works on me more than I work on it.”
return to this affirmation in times of cope.
the work, the process, the building, the doing itself is where boys are forged into men through the alchemist’s fire.
by burning away the impurities of the mind through constant dedication to destroying a previous version of you, you refine the mind & find yourself capable of receiving a new identity that’s more aligned with your Higher Self.
you destroy your current muscles in the gym so they can get bigger.
you destroy your current level of focus so you can improve your productivity.
you destroy your current beliefs so that you can adopt more expanded & integrated perspectives.
the masculine’s process of becoming anew goes something like this:
the masculine sets a goal or intent to work towards
the masculine gives of himself to that dispute by investing energy & exerting effort
the masculine receives feedback from Reality based on his pursuit that gives him new information
the masculine takes this feedback & information to establish & reinforce a new identity that’s aligned with the feedback
Example:
“I want to be a YouTuber & help people with their mental health”
uploads every day for 101 days
gains 900+ subs & gets TONS of comments & messages from followers, clients, & students that my teachings are impactful
“of course my teachings impact people, I’M FUCKING HIM.”
as I write these words on July 19th 4:48 am, I feel 1000000% convicted in who I am & my purpose as a philosopher/storyteller.
a year ago I felt no where near as strongly.
in fact post 101 daily uploads, my imposter syndrome came with a fucking VENGANCE, solidifying my identity crisis for months up until May or so once I finally received enough IRL feedback to KNOW I was him.
the feedback I’ve received from guiding friends at the gym, girls I’m dating, or even strangers I meet who I end up yappin to about spirituality or personal development over the last 6ish months has been ASTRONOMICAL for me & my confidence.
it’s hard to not feel like hot shit when everyone you have a deep convo with is telling you how profound & insightful you are.
“well of course, I’m Jaden. Bro’s him.” (is what I say in my head)
this is the power of feedback, of receiving information from reality.
we’re able to perceive ourselves how others perceive us which allows us to distance ourselves from the bs that we think about ourselves & reinforce our minds with new empowering beliefs.
you gain wisdom & discernment through xp, introspection, & reflection. from this place you’re able to shed away the falsities that you’re currently holding onto in order to make room for Truth, for Love, for Beauty, for God.
yeeaaaa I’m still half convinced this is coffeed down water..
who can stop you once YOU are out your way?
*spoilers*
it’s no one.
over the last year I’ve learned the same lesson OVER & OVER & OVER again.
the ONLY obstacles are the ones that your mind creates.
this is the No Limit Mindset.
in a universe of mentality, the only limitations are those of our own mentality.
by shifting our mentality, we shift our physicality.
Our Universe of Mentality Pt 2: The Finite Mind of Man vs The Infinite Mind of THE ALL
“As Above so Below; as Below, so Above.” - The Kybalion, on Correspondence
up until yesterday, I was still allowing my mind, or the ego’s influence on my mind I should say, to rule me & keep me trapped in victimhood.
not taking action, not claiming my agency, not stepping fully into my creatorhood.
man this coffee is really fucking disappointing..
*sighs in depression*
I was operating in fear, in “what if?”
not living in Reality, but in the illusions of the mind. and the unfortunate part is that you’ll NEVER overcome the mind IN the mind.
it doesn’t work bro.
how many times have you tried thinking of the perfect plan?
how many times have you tried thinking of how to make it happen?
how many times have you tried thinking about what to say to that person?
thinking is a fucking waste when you already know what to do & are just too fucking scared to do it.
and yesterday I learned that through DIRECT EXPERIENCE.
I’ve been avoiding the hard convo with my Dad for 2 months.
“i can’t right now he’s busy”
“i’ll talk to him tmr”
“i’ll figure this out first then talk to him after”
what a fucking pussy.
it was Day’s post “Tomorrow is a lie they sold you” that pissed me off enough to finally take that action.
at 7:15 pm I finished reading the post & decided to use the balls that God gave me.
fast forward to 7:49, & my heart felt like it’d gone through WW3 in the span of half an hour.
it was hard.
like really hard ngl.
but now I’m free.
you’re gonna be scared bro, do it anyway.
because if you don’t, you’re a coward.
and you have to go to sleep at night knowing that you could have lived today with courage & integrity, but you chose not to.
“Tell the savage truth, even if your voice shakes, especially then.” - day
Mental masturbation is just like porn
your problem is that you think that thinking about it more will help you figure out what to do.
uhn uhn. nope. incorrect. your belief is the opposite of right. (& I don’t mean left)
think all you want bro, but if thinking helped you in this scenario you probably wouldn’t be depressed right?
thought so, so maybe you should shut up & listen to the motherfucker who used to think the exact same bs.
YOU ALREADY KNOW WHAT TO DO, YOU’RE JUST NOT DOING IT.
mental masturbation is just that, masturbation.
a cheap imitation of the real thing that gives us some feeling of courage or faith because we’re “playing it out” in our heads.
no no no.
what you’re doing is playing yourself.
thinking mental masturbation is a replacement for genuine action & feedback is like thinking porn is good enough to satisfy your sexual desires.
stop cucking yourself pussy.
you’re watching some dude who’s dick is 12x the size of yours bang some chick that you’re fantasizing about & think it’s chill bro.
its not.
you’re literally programming your brain to get turned on by another man having sex with the girl you want.
if that isn’t A1 cuck behavior, idk what is.
if you want to fuck, stop wasting all your life force energy (aka your fucking cum) on busting loads to these chat girls who see you as nothing more than pixels on a screen that pay her rent & give her the validation that Daddy didn’t.
if you want to fuck, you need to get better.
more confident, more convicted in who you are, more masculine, more attractive, more still (I’m aware that it’s stiller, fuck off grammar police)
if you wanna get better that means you want to change.
if you want to change that means you want to create change.
if you want to create change that means you want to work.
if you want to work, you need fuel to do so.
your eros, the sexual energy/creative energy/life force energy of God that lives in you, as you, & through you is that fuel.
your sexual energy is genuinely your most potent resource.
pair it with some intent & some masculine lust for greatness, & you got yourself one dangerous motherfucker.
the daimon, the masculine will to strive, that lust for excellence, is your most powerful asset as a man.
that BURNING DESIRE to be great, to be iconic, to be legendary, stems from your eros, your sexual energy.
your sexual energy & creative energy are one.
we all have a unique configuration of eros, a unique way that God manifests as us.
this unique eros is responsible for:
your unique energetic makeup (your masculine & feminine energies)
your unique sexuality (the polarity of your energetic makeup)
your unique creative expression (how you build, perform, & create change)
of course there’s overlap in terms of most men being masculine or most people leaning towards heterosexuality, but there’s also sooo much room for uniqueness even in those configurations.
our unique masculine & feminine makeup is extremely important when it comes to what we value, how we express ourselves, & the way we approach growth.
def gonna talk more about this concept in a future letter, but here’s what I need you to understand for now.
Reality is a unfolding story about the evolution of eros, it’s a love story about the evolution of uniqueness.
eros, desire, it is the building block of reality.
Reality IS eros.
all the way up & all the way down. from the subatomic attraction of proton & electron, to the biological, physical, sexual, psychological, spiritual attraction of man & woman, to the magnetic attraction of north & south poles..
Reality IS allurement.
your dreams? desires.
your needs & cravings? desires.
your crushes, lovers, & partners? desire. desire. desire.
eros is the driver that moves us towards ever deeper contact & ever greater wholeness.
constantly pushing us to expand our sense of Self, constantly pushing us to deepen our connections & intimacies, constantly pushing us to evolve.
sexuality is merely a human expression of the cosmic principle of eros.
“it’s all about sex & it’s not about sex at all”
Reality is a unfolding story about the evolution of eros.
Reality is a love story about the evolution of uniqueness.
it’s your job to contribute your own chapter to the cosmic love story by living out your unique eros in your life & creative process.
channel your sexual desire into your mission & self mastery so you can become the kind of man with the sexual/intimate opportunities that he desires.
every time you send your unborn children down the toilet or into your crusty ass sock, remember that you’re extending the timeline on when you’ll be the caliber of man who’s capable of attracting the women you desire.
it’s gonna take sexual energy to fuel that transformation, the less you have the longer it takes.
ez maths.
wasting your sexual energy on porn is a no no, all it does is give you temporary satisfaction in exchange for putting your future self further into energetic dept & sexual depravity.
is that what you want bro?
i didn’t fucking think so.
so stop.
and do the same with that mental masturbating shit.
ATTACK ATTACK ATTACK ATTACK ATATCK
you NEVER know all the answers or understand the entire process before you start, sorry to break it to you but life don't work like that G.
only when you show up, will God give you the clarity you need in order to act in the present moment.
only when you write the first few words will the next reveal themselves to you.
only when you start drawing random lines will the image reveal itself to you.
only when you GET IN the conversation will you know the words to say.
it’s NEVER before.
do you understand me?
let me actually repeat that one for the peeps in the back.
you N-E-V-E-R know until you show up for the act & are ACTIVELY doing it.
clarity is earned via walking in faith.
God don’t do nun for the don’ters.
God wants the doers.
so DO God’s will.
when you get an intuition or a desire, act on it.
IMMEDIATELY.
IMMEDIATELY ATTACK.
that is the only way to counter years of living as an avoider.
this morning I woke up at 1 am with a million ideas flowing out of me & a lust to create that matches my lust for light skinned latin mamis.
I attempted to go back to sleep but was met with the rude reality that God was calling me to get my ass out of bed & get to work.
a part of me wanted to stay comfy in bed & the other part needed to be free.
can you guess who won?
at 2:30 am I’m in my chair, pen in hand, bleeding ink onto the page.
let me ask you something, would you have gotten up?
would you have gone to battle?
this shit is spiritual warfare.
ATTACK ATTACK ATTACK ATTACK ATTACK.
this needs to be your mentality when you’re faced with an intuition or an obstacle.
you need to be willing to fuck any motherfucker up who tries you (literally & metaphorically)
you’re out walking & get an idea for a post, WRITE IT, NOW.
you’re at the gym & see a baddie you wanna talk to, APPROACH HER, NOW.
you’re laying in bed at 2 am & feel like you wanna bleed on the page, DO IT, NOW.
you’re laying in bed at 1 am & feel like you got some sauce to spit, SPIT IT, NOW.
don’t wait any longer to actualize the desires that God has called you to create.
you WILL be scared at first.
but what did Day say earlier?
“Tell the savage truth, even if your voice shakes, especially then.”
I need you to LIVE the savage truth.
LIVE the savage truth, even when your body trembles, especially then.
fear isn’t for the faithful.
the fearful feel fear & allow it to make them it’s bitch.
the faithful feel fear & grin psychotically, elated that they get another chance to make Reality their fuck toy.
how are you gonna choose to live?
Do it today. Be better for it tomorrow
Stay devoted. Stay inspired.
- Jaden
P.S. ☀️
Only real ones get here 🐐 pound it G 👊🏽